I am sorry that you live your life in constant fear. Relax, we got this!
It’s not fear it’s anger!
I looked back a few days and found your comment:
I am not a military person, I have no idea what is possible.If you have never been in the military, you 've got nothing, let alone this!
I held a Top Secret clearance in the USAF and know things you never will.
Go play with something else besides international relations.