My heart hurts for you as it did when my husband died in 2016. The pain is great and lasting. There is no fixing this when you love that person. You move on and the pain is is in the back of the mind for moments of time only.
It never goes away totally. I hurt deep as I post this.
Thank you for caring so much. I still have off and on gripping anxiety that I will not be able to face this but I have to try.
I am sorry for the loss of your dear husband.