My heart goes out to you during this time of grief and readjustment. I was reading in 1 Peter this morning. Chapter 3 verse 20 tells us that one of God’s many names is “The Divine Longsuffering.” Chapter 4 has a lot to say about how we can endure suffering -
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1+Peter+4&version=NET
I continue to pray for your comfort and protection.
Thank you so much.