That is your choice just as it is to be on this pro-God forum. There are opposites, and there is eternity, and by rejecting God-given truth and morality from your own conscience at time is in essence disobeying God, and means you need His mercy and forgiveness. And as "the Father sent the Son to be the Savior of the world" (1 John 4:14) then you need to repent and receive Him. Refusal to do so manifests that you do not want to be with Him who is perfect, leaving only one other opposite reality.
Failing to be convinced by specious arguments or scanty evidence does not indicate any such thing.
"Wanting" something to be true should not influence your reasoning faculties.
Regards,
(See my tagline.)