Yup.. I get that joining a church is the ideal.. Haven’t found one for me.
I watch 700 club and Joyce Meyers.
May I recommend...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4PGyWMs0Ds
Joseph Prince - a leader in God’s end-times move of restoring to the church the true Gospel of the Grace of Christ.
Learning about the true biblical grace of Christ has set me free and changed my life forever.
God bless.
May I also add that if you have Christ we’ll all be together in Heaven. But if you receive the Baptism in the Holy Spirit now, the Spirit will help you understand grace which the carnal mind cannot comprehend (2 Peter 3:15-16).
God Bless