I was just stubborn, and not that bright. I had a lot of desire, drive, and persistence, but I didn’t think things through, got frustrated and angry easily, and got even more stubborn with each passing attempt.
It is odd to think on it. The thrill I got when I could navigate two obstacles...then three...then...wipeout. I just wanted to experience it so badly, to succeed at it...such a trivial thing. Now, I have a quarter-sized patch of scar tissue on the outside of each elbow from that series of days.
What probably did save me from fracturing my skull or worse was the fact that the skateboard would not stay together. I kept trying to fix it when the wheel assembly would come off. As an adult, I see how it works. As an 11-12 year old, all I could see was the desire to do it.
But I was stubborn. If you indulge me in this story below, it illustrates probably where that came from.
When I was perhaps 4 or 5, my mom served real mashed potatoes with raw chopped onions. I couldn’t believe it. It was the most disgusting thing I had ever eaten in my short life. The food made me actually gag. No way I was going to eat that. But I tried and tried. I cried. I hung my head and stared at the steaming pile of mash. I thought I was going to actually die, sitting there at the table, staring at those lumpy potatoes.
It turned into a struggle...a mental wrestling match between me, those animate potatoes, and my mother. I do not know how long in my life we fought, the three of us. My mother was trying to do what was right for me...I am pretty sure she thought that making me able to eat nearly anything I was served would make me grow, or something. So when she served them, I was expected to eat them. They would be added to my involuntary plate, and begin to take shape, peering back at me threateningly like Mount Suribachi.
I would eat everything around the potatoes, carefully leaving any contaminated foods exactly where they lay on the plate. Using a knife, I would surgically free the main body of the hamburger patty from the small edge that had unfortunately become ensnared in the base of the white mound. Any food so soiled was lost forever, completely inedible. Mom would watch me surreptitiously...carrying on normal conversation with everyone else, keeping one eye on my plate, on the potatoes. As long as there was some other tidbit of food on the plate, or a mouthful of some liquid that could be sipped...confrontation was avoided.
But I could only sip at a glass of milk, each sip smaller and smaller than the previous one, until finally it was me in one corner, and the potatoes in the other. I would settle in, hunch my shoulders for conflict, and lower my head. Body language transmitting at high frequency, the signal flags were raised, and the battle was joined. Slowly, everyone else would finish dinner, dessert was served, and plates were removed. The lights would go down, and soon it was just me under the white light which shone brightly down on the potatoes. The sentries were posted on the ramparts, and the long siege began.
There were many times I tried to avoid this standoff. Occasionally, I would attempt to stealthily feed them to the dog under the table. I thought this was a brilliant idea until I tried it. The problem is, dogs just do not enjoy mashed potatoes with raw chopped onion. To avoid a real conflagration, I would have to retrieve the uneaten lump of dog-proof potato on the floor before my mother saw it. I would put it back on the plate, secure in the knowledge that now I really WOULD have to die before I would put those drool covered potatoes into my mouth.
Another time, I attempted to conceal the potatoes in my mouth and transport them into the bathroom during a sanctioned toilet break. There, I could drop them in the toilet, flush, and be free of...a mouthful. What then? Next time, I would fill my mouth until I must have looked like a chipmunk with mumps before I went to the bathroom. The basic, insurmountable flaw of this approach was that the mere act of putting the onion laden mash into my mouth was very nearly just as disgusting as chewing and swallowing. The gag reflex under that much pressure made for a memorable potato pyrotechnical show. That was a dead end.
As I got more experienced, I attempted mind over matter. It was me and the potatoes. As we stared each other down, I would get angry. I began to work myself up. I could do this. I could do anything. This was easy. I found that if I did not chew them and experience a nausea inducing crunch of raw onion between my molars, I could actually attempt to swallow them without chewing. This seemed like a good thing to try until I actually tried it. My mother would stare at me in amazed horror and disgust as I gagged.
But she made me sit there until they were gone. So, I would settle in for the long haul. I would hunker down, and stare at those potatoes. Life would go on. Television was watched, toys were played with, pajamas were put on, and eventually my mother would take the plate and send me to bed. I was never so happy in my life at that point. This went on time and time again for years.
At some point in my life, my mom gave up. I truly cannot say if the war lasted one month or six years. I have no idea. In any case, I think it was a very good truce for both of us. It freed her in some way, and I was able to sit at the table and enjoy meals. And I love her dearly for it.
To this day, my older brother says: “We thought you were amazing, you were so stubborn, and would just sit there for hours staring at those potatoes until mom would finally give in. We really admired how stubborn you were!”
Oh my God, I thought I was the only one!
I absolutely HATED mashed potatoes (still do). I was always afraid they would make me throw up. Baked potatoes are almost as bad.
I went through the same struggle with my mom, not quite as epic as yours, but a struggle nonetheless.
Well, at least you were a hero in your siblings eyes.
OF course, they left you hanging at the time and you were on your own.
Bet you ate those taters while in boot camp....<: <:
Well, at least you were a hero in your siblings eyes.
OF course, they left you hanging at the time and you were on your own.
Bet you ate those taters while in boot camp....<: <:
Thursday at our House was Beef Liver night. I hated Liver as much as I hated Beets. YUCK, YUCK, YUCK!
I talked my Parents into letting me eat Dinner in the Den so I could watch TV. Our Family Dog joined me, and he really appreciated Liver night and my Mother’s Cooking. LOL