I often have that feeling myself, especially that He is very removed from us or that He only listens to the prayers of some and ignores the rest of us. Very scary and depressing. It removes all hope for a better future.
Well, our lives are in our hands. We succeed or fail based on what we Do. God is real but it or He is not driving our cars. I have never seen any evidence of God since the resurrection. Not one thing ever. I see a great deal of money raising by professional Christians based on false promise of prosperity. What a laugh. Have you ever seen Peter Popoff? He has these morons thanking him for government transfer payments.