You are not the only one having second thoughts on the Catholic church.
My take is sports related - I was born / Baptized a Catholic. So Catholic is my home team by default. When the home team plays well I cheer - as in the Polish Pope. When the home team has idiot managers (homo priests abusing alter boys) / owners I do not attend the games or give money. All my kids were baptized Catholic, and I hope to be buried with a Catholic mass. All else is up for some level of negotiation
I hear what you are saying but I would honestly say you should talk to some Catholic priests or lay people who are involved in teaching and know true doctrine before you throw in the towel, so to speak.
Cathloics DO a poor job of educating anyone beyond childhood.
It’s like you go to mass, but the only time people really explained anything to you was when you were a kid, IF at that.
I teach Catechism or Sunday School—both names are actually correct. My kids are generally junior high school and high school age so they keep me on my toes with questions... BUT, they actually ask them. Anything too hard or where I might not know the full answer I ask Father or the Deacon to help on, and they’re glad to come in and talk to all of us. And yes, I have them study both the Bible and the official Catechism of the Church at length!
The thing is, adult Catholics often never ask, and are given questions, and the answers to things, that for some reason they don’t turn around and ask someone in the Church.
That to me is like a Republican voter being told by a democrat recruiter about how awful, mean, and inhuman Republicans are, and simply accepting that and then voting democrat. We KNOW the Republicans are seriously messed up, and they have to make things right. Same with the Church.
But, hey, you’re a grown person and can make you’re own decisions, I wouldn’t twist your arms about it. It just that it’s like that saying Ronald Reagan used to use:
“Well, the trouble with our liberal friends is not that they are ignorant, but that they know so much that isn’t so.”
A lot of what’s said about the Catholic Church just isn’t so.