I used to feel that way too.I decided that you only get one life and I wanted the toys that most amused me.
I LIKE your attitude. It's a good one.
I have a wonderful pellet pistol (for the crows) and it's a replica of a Magnum .357.
One of my neighbors called the cops on me when she saw me shooting at the crows. Four cop cars came. I showed them my pellet gun...and they did nothing. Well, they made a couple of jokes but they are legal, so they couldn't take it away or ticket me. Life is good.