Me too. I gave up being a liberal at the same time the Republican Party gave up being conservative.
Overall I don’t think the GOP was ever really Conservative, briefly when Reagan was President, but in most of of it’s existence not really much.
It too was always a Big Government Party just in a different way from the Democrats. Of course once upon a time the Democrats actually used to be the party of the middle America, the little guy, boy that shipped sailed a long time ago.