I am sorry to hear of your nephews. The Archbishop of Milwaukee, Rembert Weakland, threatened teachers in a Catholic school who reported sexual abuse by local priests. He said anyone reporting sexual abuse was “squealing”. He stole $450,000 from church funds and gave it to his homosexual lover. He created and protected a network of homosexual priests.
I applaud you for not losing faith in God. I hope whatever you choose brings you happiness and I wish you well.