Do you really want to know how my day is going? I've been in excruciating pain all day. I think I have a torn rotator cuff and calcium deposits in my shoulder. I had an MRI yesterday and have a follow-up with my doctor on Thursday. Death has looked particularly good to me many times this week. It's like having labor pain in my shoulder without the joy of a child coming out after 24 hours or so. ☺
I had major surgery on one of my shoulders four years ago. Mine was almost not salvageable. I know what you are going through.
BTW, you mentioned child rearing days. Our youngest is a 27 year old engineer for an insurance company (insures industrial buildings). The only one I’m “committed to” is my wife at this point. Her first husband died when she was about 28. She’s been through it before. If I die first, she’ll do fine. And we both are deeply aware of the temporal nature of this earthly life relative to eternity.