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I have not asked Him to help me help others actually, but I have certainly tried to help others who were addicted to the same drugs as myself, the one that was akin to climbing Mount Everest in terms of kicking addiction to was Xanax, and I failed in those efforts to help others.

I tired to impart to a particular person not only what I learned from beating that addiction but also how I did it step by step, but there has been no success very sadly, my friend is still lost in the forest.

The problem boils down to no matter how much you want to help someone, no matter how much you want to guide someone, you can’t be there for them all the time, only that person can do that duty.

Furthermore, I don’t believe that my friend believes in God, and I am absolutely certain that without my belief in Him, I would no longer be here.

I can’t really stress enough just how amazing it was to on the darkest of days to pray to Him and tell Him that I am utterly lost and to please give me the strength to overcome, and then finding that strength in my body, which should most certainly have ceased living on that very day, to endure a slow walk up and out of Hell.

And that journey did not happen quickly or easily. It took years, and I started to fall back into the pit twice more before I finally walked away.

In the years past that i have really come to love sobriety as the only state of being that matters, because every other state I tried was false.

Hard lessons, but I wouldn’t trade them for anything, this was something I needed to learn the very hard way.