Been there, did that, twice in 80s, back in in NYC (no help); once with alcohol and oxy in 90s, here in PA (got help). Saw the *black bottom* each time, and survived. I'm better for going thru it, but it's not something I wish I'd or anyone else would have had to put on their life's resumé. I had a close friend in NYC, when I worked there, who didn't get out of that awful coke hole alive.
I’ve helped put 12 in the ground from the poison