Bitter, you are and bitter you will stay and accomplishing nothing. Then do something. What are you doing about it?
What history teaches those who understand history do when tyranny is established.
In addition, I will prefer and select staunch Conservatives every single time if elections have any meaning. Absolutists who will not betray Conservatism.
Put that in your pipe and smoke it.
Your party is already done for.
You just don't realize it yet.