There is also a strong possibility that things will not proceed as you fear. Perhaps something good will come out of this. You just never can know for sure.
you are in denial, its ok. What happened this week was a disaster beyond words and we are all trying to cope.
I am still ABO no matter what, but after what roberts did this week, one wonders if it really matters any more.
Just get on this train there is a better life for you at the end, jobs food, happy times, right?