Dear Yashcheritsiy, you are awesomely good at attributing motives to me.
But how do you know these things? Do you understand my heart, my love for the Logos? Do you understand what I think, how I reason, how I feel? Do you understand my life experiences, what they mean to me, and how they have helped me to grow after many wrong turnings by the Light of Christ, with the aid of the Holy Spirit all thanks and praise be to God Our Father Who Art in Heaven?
Hallowed be His Name, now and forever!
If you don't understand those things, then you don't know the first thing about me.
But here's a truth I have learned the hard way: We tend to see in others only what we see in ourselves. "If we misbehave, we suspect others." Beware of inadvertent "confessions of character."
I really wish you would stop trying to make this conversation "all about me." It just somehow looks like you're trying to "play God."
But do you know what God knows? Do you understand how He judges?
You seem to think you've "got all the facts." But if you can't fit them into a reasonable explanatory framework that matches up with the world of reality, both natural and spiritual, then those "facts" and any combination thereof are essentially meaningless.
And thus of no real help to you at all.
JMHO, FWIW.
Thank you for writing, dear Yashcheritsiy. May the Peace of Christ be with you.
Who's "attributing motives" to you? This is something you actually said. Not sure why you seem to think that we'll just blank out on something you said two days ago....