n00b, that is nothing to feel bad about. As time passes, you will grow.
Here’s some advice:
Lose the Mormon victim mentality and whining. Disagreement is not “vitriol”... Except as you imagine it.
I pinged one dear friend who grew up Mormon in Utah. Blessedly, color country came to know Christ and had the courage to break free and follow Him. Since she has a Mormon husband, I’m sure she can convince you she doesn’t hate Mormons.
Oh, I know plenty of former mormons who don’t express vitriol, but I know plenty who do. I suppose this site has both as well.
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