My husband, who is a former cop, upon learning he has Alzheimer’s and Parkinson, threatened to kill himself. I immediately got rid of his guns. He has said many times that he’d rather be dead than have this horrible disease. Against his wishes, I do what I can to keep him comfortable and alive. His Living Will states that he is a DNR and wants only comfort care. As his wife, the decision for me is unbearable. He is in the latter stage, but is still at home. I imagine him to be in a nursing home by winter because I cannot handle him by myself. I cannot and will not judge another’s decision, because I am so unsure of myself, and the right thing to do when the time comes. It’s all about him, but I am the one who has to live with the consequences.
My sympathies to you in an incredibly difficult situation.
I can’t give you advice because I am not in your position but I can say that I will pray that God will give you peace as you make very difficult decisions. Your husband’s life is in God’s hands and nothing that you do will change the will of God so don’t beat yourself up!