I struggled with this over forty years ago, but the fact is I have to obey the law. My first wife was an adulterer who divorced me.
I have been married to the same woman for 39 years now. I prayed for a woman to help me, and God sent her, and I have been greatly blessed. If I am an adulterer then so be it.
Man was not ment to live alone, I guess.
I am sorry. Sounds ghastly.
Maybe God has different answers for different people, I don’t know.