Sorry i´m drunk and i´m really of topic. but can please tell me an USMC member that it´s not my fault. It really haunts me because i didn´t wan´t to shoot this kid.
I gave him credit! He had 3 shots until i closed my eyes and pulled the trigger. (he was in my aim and i never saw him again so i guess i hit him). Ok this is crap i know i hit him! But it was a freaking kid!!!!
sorry!
Take a cab to the nearest V.A. Hospital pronto!
I would recommend you go ASAP to your chaplain or preacher and have a serious discussion. You will not find any sort of relief here for that. Seriously, go talk to someone.
Former Army here. Though I don’t have any kills whatsoever I won’t insult your sense of honor (or morality) by saying that “it was ok because he was a combatant and you were in a war-zone.” There’s enough questionability on the morality of the US using its military as a world police-force that ‘doing your duty’ is of questionable significance.
I will however say that on the personal-moral level it was a case of self defense: he was trying to kill you. Your God-given right to life is either worthy of defending or not; I believe it is, even to the point of lethal violence.
I know that this is of little comfort, at best, but I hope that it is *some* comfort.
You’re in my prayers, darkside - your burden is so heavy - my heart goes out to you.