Ah, the old *weak faith because you don't live like I think you should* accusation.
That didn't take long.
You fit this author's characterization of an atheist to a T.
Read the other posts here, in agreement with mine, that true believers would risk everything for their faith. No suffering they endure on this planet, for their beliefs would compare to what they believe awaits them, in the Afterlife.
You, however, are a weak believer. An opportunist, one might say.