I own a small business also. So, if I had worked out a compensation package where I kept my bonus in the company for a couple of years, I’m not entitled to receive it and layoff employees in anticipation of lowered future sales.
You sound like my employees. They think no one should get laid off if I get paid at all.
I would not think of giving myself a “performance bonus” for running my own business. Why would I want to cut into my profits needlessly? Put the money back into the business and let it grow...