If you were my wife I wouldn’t keep you a secret.
I would run like hell.
You are seriously disturbed.
You are an abusive woman hating piece of trash who thinks cheating is okay. You think abuse is okay.
You think vows are nothing. You think it means nothing to stand before God and take vows. VOWS MEAN NOTHING TO YOU!
Please leave your wife. Perhaps she’ll find a real man to be a father to the kids. If you’ve even cheated once you don’t love any of them anyway.