You have been liberally brainwashed.
The republican party is a great American institution which I am proud to associate with and to support, and along with the US military is the direct cause of most of the justice and decency existing in the modern world. And it got that way being a big tent for squishes, especially those hawkish on foreign policy and committed to defending capitalism in economics, who aren't particularly conservative in any other respects.
I'd like to see the country become more conservative than that, but then I'd also like to see universities teach real objective knowledge instead of Stalinist agitprop and self-involved twaddle, families stay together and raise their children instead of murdering them or splitting up, and lots of other things we don't have in the modern world. Wishes are not horses, realism is a virtue, and we do what we can.