Wow, are you a victim?
No, I picked myself up, dusted myself off, logged on with a different e-mail address and came back for more.
By the way, There is no name or word or phrase in any language you can say that will make me think any less of myself or my heritage. Elanor Roosevelt was right. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." It is too bad that we go around seconding the consent of some to their feelings of inferiority while expecting everyone else to be above that kind of self disrespect and inferiority.