Lighting a candle and praying for timer and family.
Thanks to one and all for your prayers and concerns. My nephew by the way is lexinom. It was a heart attack, 2nd in a month(this on top of ulcers). First was congestive heart failure in which they pulled 2 gallons of fluid out of my lungs, this was the real deal. Monday morning(7/9)I was sweating like a tropical rain shower. So, should I call 911, and maybe end up looking like a dufuss(I HATE using up medicare monies as there are far more worthy people than me who really need it)? But I did, last thing I remember was looking at the feet/lower legs of the EMT guy. If they had been 10 minutes later I wouldn’t be here.
Woke up wednesday morning in ICU. My cousin tereasa asked me on tuesday if I’d seen death’s door(I was completely out of it, on ventilator, remember nothing). I told her : No, just galloped on by she said(I’m a MONTANAN)...
So it looks like a “ring job”(bypass)in a month but hey, we all get there. How often do we pause in our busy day and reflect upon the meaning of our individual life, what it meant to others? Ronald Reagan : what great thing did YOU ever do? Ghandi : murders and thieves come and go, but the truth and love are forever. And of course our beloved lord Jesus waits for us beyond the grave, having defeated death.
By the stats then I should have been GONE a week ago but THEY up there want me to stick around for awhile for some reason, maybe it’s because I’m an architect/inventor and beyond Einstein/Heisenberg, what do I know? What I DO know is that I keep a whole TEAM of guardian angels busy....
All I know it that I’ve been persecuted for righteousness sake(30 years ago, leaving family and home behind)and the last 4 months have been JOB’s sorrows. But then didn’t HE say you have to bear your cross? Thus as YOU are persecuted for your faith, thumped on, yelled at...smile, HE is making you his own child. GOD himself(in my view)was also crucified by the 24 elders before the Big Bang. Imagine HIS loneliness in the darkness as an outcast, much as Jesus felt upon the cross when everyone had deserted him.
Finally HE came to realize that only by SELF SACRIFICE could the wonder of creation come about. You understand a mother giving her life to save her child, yes? Thus in my view, GOD, in DYING, gave LIFE to YOU and all the universe around you. Jesus alluded to this when he said that a man can have no greater love than to give his life for his friends.
Yes, I know the science beyond what is now known, but who made science, and everything else? Some dufuss human, or someone who long, long ago, in galaxies far, far away, reached out with blind faith(there was no LIGHT, remember?)to create YOU as a kindred soul?
So we all meet in that valley, passing on to another life, another existence, many don’t make it upward, a few find that narrow, poorly marked exit lane off the freeway, and do rise up to that QM world to come. Patience and faith my friends, patience and faith; it is not for nothing that we are still here, living the best lives we can....
Again, thank you all, it means so very much to me...