Which begs me to ask, why did you find just one? Why not two? Or more? Pardon me if I sound rude, I am just curious. Maybe you just pieced together with whatever you could, the gulf between your earlier disbelief, and the notions of the believers which you liked to dispel. If you hadn't had the notion then, that the believers believed in this single god, and that this god was masculine, would you have come to the same conclusion as them, unguided?
My One God discovery might have been merely the result of social conditioning-growing up in a Christian culture.I am OPEN to the possiblility of more than one God but don’t feel the need for multiple gods.
I think it was/is part of my quest and fervent desire to believe in something bigger than myself and the promise of either reincarnation or an afterlife of some kind.I am not a dogmatic Christian but simply cannot comprehend the end of my mortal existence.
Might be my huge ego speaking.I’m just”too important”to be dust in the wind.Yet throughout history,sages and visionaries from all cultures have felt the presence of a “God”.They can’t all be whackos.