Yes. It has been a long, empty search. The want is great, but the hopes are nearly non-existent.
I contend with out a God,life is pretty meaningless.I was a totally anti-religious person in my younger days.Both parents and most of my friends were deeply cynical.I came to God through mysticism and figuring out that the patterns in my life were much too interconnected to be mere coincidence.Like Cott,I believe there is nothing wrong in accepting a”free gift”,if indeed thats what lies beyond.
I think I am a much more”moral”person since I became a believer.I won’t even use the term”sinner”.Sinning in the way I used to”sin”just got plain boring.I started to look for something deeper.
Thats when I found”God”.