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First for all who do not know, Clovis_Skeptic is Connie's brother. I know posting these updates have not been easy for him. Thank you, Clovis_Skeptic. Our prayers are with you.

Last night, I received and email from Tom. He gave me permission to post it.

Connie has not left us yet but is knocking at Heaven’s gate. She is resting peacefully and we are able to administer what appears to be the perfect dose of pain medication. We have tried 4 different ones and finally found one easy to administer and effective enough to keep her at ease. We are anticipating her final moments and hopefully it will be as peaceful as her rest appears to be at this time . Jesus will certainly take this one. A comforting note is that she told me " I AM going to Heaven", so that tells me she was not as afraid of the unknown coming destination as most people appear to be. I told her how fortunate she is to have a first class ticket. I told her how lucky she is to be taking THE trip and how selfish I am for wanting her to stay with me and put off the wonderful things ahead of her.

This has been so hard to watch over the last 20 months. She has been leaving a little at a time and only in the last month or so has it been to the point where you could see the changes daily. She is such a strong person. Not once have I seen her cry about her being sick and having a terminal illness. There were times during the last few weeks that she showed her irritability but it was from not feeling well and certainly understandable. My prayers always included asking God to help and guide me to do the things that would keep her comfortable. I tried to keep her comfort in the forefront of all activities, to the point of at times she would tell me "stop, I am fine".

Amy, I never thought in my time on this earth that I would experience a feeling so strong for anyone as I have for Connie. We have had such a wonderful time together, such fun and laughter she brought with her at every turn in her life with me. During her illness and fighting to keep death at a distance, I never thought a little simple sweet smile would become so precious to remember. She would tell me almost every night "goodnight sweetheart, I love you see you in the morning". She could say that with such a sweet voice how I will miss that. After 19+ years of marriage, we have only spent 5 or 6 days apart and that was when I traveled for business. I usually managed to take her with me. Life has its interruptions and this certainly is a devastating one for me she wanted me to retire so we could spend more time together .... a cloud got in the way of our sunshine!!

Love you all,
Tom

PLease continue to pray for this FReeper Family.