I agree. My brother was schizophrenic and I could see it in his eyes and the way he was talking. He sounded paranoid and tortured. In no way does that excuse what he did. My brother was tortured too, and he didn’t kill 32 other people when he killed himself.
Nor did mine.......A drug and alcohol combo took his life ten years ago.
I am so very sorry for your loss. And for the anguish you must have felt before, as well as after. Mental illness and substance abuse affects the families as much as it does the those who directly suffer from them. I am just so sorry.