You have way too low a view of the holiness of God, and way to high a view of your own character.
I plead innocent to your first charge and guilty to the second.I DO have a high view of my own character and I feel that way because development of aformentioned character is constantly changing and being smoothed out for the better.
I do exercise humility and view God as my standard for how to live a righteous life.And,like all of us mortals,I have fallen short of that in my own life.
Yet eternal damnation?Sorry, but thatterrible fate offends my understanding of the essence of God Himself.
When it comes down to it you know absolutely nothing more or less than this poster or me about God. You have a belief. Belief doesn't equal truth. Sorry.