I am so sorry!!!!
It has been almost ten years and I have never stopped loving her. She was an extraordinarily beautiful woman who gave me two handsome, terrific sons. One a Navy Nuke and the younger is graduating this term from college. I see their mom in both and they were the lights of her life.
God blessed me by giving her to me for 20 yrs as he has you with your beloved husband. So we have had something that many never experienced and should give thanks for those blessings hard as it is to let go when we must. Godfearing people like you know that He knows best and accept His will.