"I probably don't have twenty years to wait."
Well, there is that. At 60, I don't know if I do, either, but it's something to look forward to.
Let me be clear. I do not reject the idea that life came from "inanimate" matter. Because "inanimate matter" is nothing like what Lucretius imagined, images which was incorporated into the early atomic theory. What it "is" we do not know. What we do know that that it is not "dead" and if not "alive," then dynamic--and elusive.