Morality.
Tough row to hoe bro. We are called Christians for a reason.
Mat 5:6 Blessed [are] they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
Mat 5:10-12
10 Blessed [are] they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when [men] shall revile you, and persecute [you], and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great [is] your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.(Red letters indicate words spoken by Jesus Christ)
"Morality." Are ya feeling that kinda pressure? From whom, bucko? Is your pressure coming from a fissure within traditional family values or a sense of guilt from straying or just not knowing? I found that Doing the Next Right Thing, with the next right thing following the last- brought serenity to my troubled heart, mind & soul. Still don't do it very well- it's a hard practice for the first 60 years or so- and my dumb azz only has about 12 days all put together, lol... give it a shot, life is surprisingly longer than our daily experience could dictate...