So you feel that it would be better to er on the side of death? Wow! Quite Christian of you. I suppose there is nothing that can be done to stop you from invoking the Lord's name, but I do not know a true Christian that would take the stance with which you have alligned yourself. You are truly a confused individual. And by the way, poligamy is o. k. in your "Christian" eyes? How very sad.
You don't know me so you have no basis on which to judge my faith, but you're fee think what you wish. I'll look you up when we're in heaven, and see if you still question it then. Until then, you just don't know.