If you stake your faith on the absence of abiogenesis, you might end up like the flat earthers.
Just make up your mind that God did it and we may never fully understand how. Otherwise, you may find that the mustard seed rotted.
Even if we discover a possible path for abiogenesis, we are unlikely to know the actual historical path.
If you fail to stand up to the conventional wisdom of your peers you will never be a great scientist.