I was being honest with myself; I just as easily could have sat on the jury -- heck, you know me -- I could have SWAYED the jury.
I just didn't want to serve on a jury like that, do you understand?
I understand, in your specific case.
I certainly understand and you did the right thing. I was on a jury once who had to decide on whether or not a woman's ex-boyfriend had broken into her house. We all thought it was possible but that the prosecutor had not proven his case, so we decided not guilty. But one woman on the jury wanted to hold out for a guilty conviction because she said that men had been getting away with this sort of thing forever and it was time to start finding them guilty. Had she persisted, it would have been a hung jury. She should not have been on that jury.