In my late wife's case it was a terrifying fear of getting pregnant again. It was 1971 and we were 20 at the time of abortion. We were young, scared and had originally decided to have the baby and get married, but my wife's fear of her mother's reaction to her pregnancy changed all that at the last minute. I can tell you we had no idea what we were really doing, not that that is an excuse. Her mother had had 3 miscarriages, two before she was born and was not stingy with her stories about the pain they caused. My wife told me that she was so afraid if she got pregnant again she would have a miscarriage like her mother and that she didn't think she could stand the emotional and physical pain the loss of the baby would cause. She never mentioned the abortion, but I always felt that her pain and emotional trauma from that procedure had a lot to do with that. Sadly we never had any children. I suppose a religious person might say that was our punishment for refusing his original offer.
Don't ever think that God doesn't forgive. He does. If you think a 'religious' person would say you are being punished for never being able to have children when you wanted them, then that person is sanctimonious, and so very very wrong.
I'm not justifying your abortion situation, no, never, but sometimes women react to outside influences instead of following their natural God-given maternal instincts.
Every action produces consequences, but know that God is a forgiving God, if there is true contrition. Now it's time to forgive yourself.
God Bless you!
MMJ