You are a liar,a fraud,an attention seeker,and a case of arrested development,who has NOT "defended" himself at all.
You are NOT " terminally ill" at all.
You did NOT lose your job because you are 1)an American 2)President Bush has " immoral " policies 3)nor for any reason pertaining to governmental interference.You did NOT get emphysema because you had Asthmatic bronchitis,or bronchitis of any kind.And no one, NO ONE AT ALL has been " deceitful " but YOU !
Go to bed and at least try to be truthful to yourself.