I miss my mom and my dad too, but I still have my son and my daughter who need me and three grandchildren who look like ripples in the larger dim stream of days past, so I'll just go on leaving a little bit here and there that needs tending to for a while yet.
It gets easier but I know the season makes it feel worse.
I don't usually dissemble.
Thru the years, I have learned that we are all here for a reason .. I'm not really sure what that reason is for me .. but I do know that God has the answers and will let me know some day.
For now, I just take one day at a time and try to take my mothers advice to always make sure my bags are packed, because one never knows what tomorrow will bring.