That's part of the process of recovery. Someday I will find out why I was using. I have a long time to go before I get there.
You would have had no need for worry had you sought the peace of the Lord.
That is ALSO part of the process of recovery. I have surrendered myself completely to the hands of G-d.
If you are a user, and you progress to the point I got to, you will have a head-start, since you already embrace G-d.