Sorry that you feel that way.
There is a lot more going on here than simple how we are "feeling".
I am the world's biggest wimp, and avoid the sight of blood at all costs, including my own, but.
I know that there are instances when I would force myself, no question, not only to look but to act. There is not much point in dwelling on what those might be, suffice to sat that the thought itself is painful.
We have been chosen by fate to live this event; it is extraordinary and a defining moment for the character of any nation, and I see it as one of those events that all of us would rather not experience.
I would view the unedited tape. I would force myself to. If for no other reason than to defy those weak of spirit as well as heart who would rather avoid, evade and forget, and mouth inanities like "lowering ourselves to their level".
I can never forget Winston Churchill's words:
No nation has ever been saved from extinction by 'good men'.
Maybe I should have be more clear with my response
Sorry