Maybe. This is an unfortunate thing that nobody wants to do. If it gives you 'jollies', I'd step back and talk to God about it.
God dosn't listen to atheists. But you may be right anyway. I am completely fascinated by nuclear weapons and I really look foward to seeing them used in the defense of the USA. They are, in an odd way, the height of man's reasonable capabilities and it seems as though we are wasting our abilities if we do not use them to furthur our own existence. I have a feeling that God would not see eye to eye with me on this one.