False premises almost always lead to false conclusions, even when sound principles of logic are used. Since your premises are false, your conclusions have no validity.
The Lord Jesus Christ holds in His nail-scarred hands the destinies of all things. That Jesus is the One Whom you really don't seem to know. Gosh, it would appear that you hate Him.
Saying you don't hate Him means nothing. According to the Lord Himsefl, you can confess Jesus with your mouth even when your heart is far from Him.
My concern is that you haven't embraced the Gospel, but the Lie of Eden. This Satanic shell game fools a lot of people.