Maybe I'm wrong--I don't claim to know the mind of the Lord with respect to all details of His plan--but I think He has already decided what He is going to do to you.
You haven't a clue about what God is going to do with me, but I do! I have accepted Christ as my Savior, so my ultimate future is secure. I live a live without fear because I know that God holds my life and my future in the palms of his hands.