Of course, it is also not within my power to live for my faith either!
And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it. - Luke 9:23,24
I have always seen His cross was His submission to the Fathers will...and that was what he asks of us..to "pick up that cross" submit to our God..
You know Jery I have always had a "whatever" attitude to my life since I became a Christian....I really believe that I can do all things through Christ that strength me.....I do not need to know what the future holds....You are right we neithor live nor die in our own strength