I just wanted to let you all know that my dad died at around midnight last night. I found out when I woke up this morning.
I'm currently in Nelspruit at debrief with my entire squad and I truly feel like there's nowhere else in the world I would rather be. Last night, I told my squad what was happening and they put me in the middle of the room and laid hands on me and prayed for me. They hugged me and encouraged me and loved me. I have never felt so loved or supported, but it's still really hard being here. It's not hitting me, but what is hitting me is the guilt. I'm really struggling today with feeling like he tried really hard to love me in his own way and I rejected him. It's just really hard.
Specifically, please be praying for my brother Gunner. He lived alone with my dad for over 10 years and is struggling with the guilt of not getting him help sooner. He is really in a bad place mentally and is very unstable, so I'm really scared of what he might do in this time. Also keep my Uncle Tom, who was really close with him, in your prayers, my sister Kristen, who's having a really difficult time, and my mom, who knew and loved my dad far better than I did.
Thanks again for your love and support. Mary
Prayers.
Prayers.
Thank you for all of your prayers and kind thoughts for Mary and her family.
I have not heard back from her. She is in Africa and can not always get the internet.
I am sure that she will feel blessed from all of your prayers and thoughts.
Peace be with you.