My heart is absolutely BROKEN and I too do NOT want to believe a word of this.
Rush is one of my favorite people in the world. I would never hold an addiction against him, either, if this were true. It's the illegality that would make him look so bad, if this were true. However, addiction makes people care about nothing other than the drug.
Maybe I was too gullible to read this story and think it might be true. Actually, I only FEAR that it's true. I pray it's not.