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Ypur post is spot on. I was a self mulitator for years. Last year I just stopped. Yes I did take drugs for like two weeks... it was making me fall asleep at work. Drugs may help immediate situations but I can tell you as a recovering cutter they don't do jack for long term. The touchy feely therapy as much as people make fun, is more effective than medicine. Therapists are expensive so I got free,christian counseling with a church that specialized in helping abused girls with sound professional therapy. In the end, I really had to work out my own problems, which were sexual abuse,getting severely bullied at school,etc. I was a very bad cutter before 9-11. 9-11 had a profound effect upon me and I started opening my eyes and realizing the world is bigger than me.

Instead of therapists, I bought books. Lots of books, magazines, anything I could read. I wanted a motorcycle, but my mom could only handle a scooter. I socialize. Before I was extremely anti-social and afraid of people. I exercise everyday now as I am going to play a team sport. Now I'm losing weight, I can't wear short shorts because of the scars on my legs. That's probably a good thing because I don't want to look like a skank. I'm turning thirty, and I didn't think I would make it to thirty.

Good on ya!

Glad to know you are recovering from that horrible abuse you suffered. People find all sorts of ways of coping -- some find alcohol or drugs, others find food, bad relationships, working to excess, etc.

All these things are an indication that someone needs help, but it takes alot of guts to get help and actually change who you are. Sounds like you are going to do well in life.

God bless you.